2009? Where does the time go? Just yesterday I had a career that I loved, I lived exactly where I wanted to live and had a body to die for. I have never understood peoples propencity for making New Year's resolutions. I don't know if I always felt that way, or if watching others make them and then break them allowed me to see that making them are futile. I do know that I used to get a kick out of watching the fitness center fill up with people I have never seen before on January 2nd and then dwindle back down to the original numbers as the weeks went by. Our regulars used to get so upset as the new people took up room in the classes and made the wait for the exercise machines longer. They couldn't wait for all those resolutions to fail so we could get back to business as usual.
Why do people continue to make these resolutions year after year only to fail most of the time? My clients who stayed with me during all my illnesses would say at the beginning of each new year,"this is going to be your year". Unfortunately, I'm still waiting for that year!
It is very hard to watch all these years go by and still be as sick as I was last year and the year before, etc. Even though I know that's to be expected, I guess it makes it real. It's hard to know that I have almost been this ill for 10 years, a decade. Where did my thirities go? My thirties were suppossed to be great years in my life, I was suppossed to have continued to have great career success, it was suppossed to be a time of activity and living and life. Instead, it's been years of hospitals and doctors and lying in bed. Of watching more TV than I ever would have wanted, of suffering and praying for this time to be over. Of wishing I was anywhere but here instead of seizing the day.
Melissa
Why do people continue to make these resolutions year after year only to fail most of the time? My clients who stayed with me during all my illnesses would say at the beginning of each new year,"this is going to be your year". Unfortunately, I'm still waiting for that year!
It is very hard to watch all these years go by and still be as sick as I was last year and the year before, etc. Even though I know that's to be expected, I guess it makes it real. It's hard to know that I have almost been this ill for 10 years, a decade. Where did my thirities go? My thirties were suppossed to be great years in my life, I was suppossed to have continued to have great career success, it was suppossed to be a time of activity and living and life. Instead, it's been years of hospitals and doctors and lying in bed. Of watching more TV than I ever would have wanted, of suffering and praying for this time to be over. Of wishing I was anywhere but here instead of seizing the day.
Melissa
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