At the beginning of the divorce, everyone told me to expect a roller coaster ride, I did and wasn't disappointed. I could go through more emotions in one day than I would in a month! LOL  As time has gone on like all things, it has gotten better. In fact I was doing fairly well which is probably why I am surprised I am struggling. I am hurting and sensitive and crying at the drop of a hat. Not like me at all. It could be I am getting sick again. I went through a week where I was being so sensitive. My poor dad LOL, he couldn't say anything right and we got into a few humdingers of a quarrel. Once I actually got sick I was able to make the correlation and apologize and own that it was me being sensitive.

After a ton of tests(and I still have a bunch to go) and all the doctors, the concensus seems to be that this infection is a result of my Sarc. Lovely. It is not a usual presentation of Sarc, but this disease presents itself in so many weird and different ways that nothing can be ruled out. So I got to start a new drug oh joy. Hopefully side effects will be a minimum and it won't cause any new problems.

I enjoyed the distraction of the Olympics, and wish I could find something to take it's place. I had hoped to be going out more and exercising by now but I guess that will come later. I am still trying and that is all anyone can ask for.

I am in limbo and can't make some decisions and I think it's freezing me from making any. Plus the first couple months of a new year are so filled with doctor appointments and tests that I feel all I am is a sick person.

But hopefully this will pass soon and at least I know it will pass. If I have learned anything over this illness and the happening of the last year is that this too shall pass and it will get better. That is enough to give me hope:-)