Hope, goals, looking forward to a different future. Once my ex-husband walked out, I read everything I could get my hands on. One of the books said that you mourn the loss of the future you had planned. That is very true. There were so many things coming up that I at least was looking forward to and now those things will not happen.

I have come to the conclusion, that I cannot move forward without hope. Most of my Hope comes from my faith and from God, and as much as I'd like to just wait for God to send me a text, email, tweet or instagram, telling me what to do next, I need to have some goals of my own. The exciting thing for me is I do have some things I am looking forward to. Moving is at the top. For years I have wanted to move home to Bradenton and now I will be. I don't know exactly when but soon. Being closer to my parents will be relief.  I cannot wait to get back to the laid back easy feel of a coastal town. I am continuing on with my masters degree and that will open up my future to some possibilities. And the big one is I am starting to date again. I have to say I am absolutely terrified, but I am going in with a complete open mind, no expectations, just to meet people and have a good time.

Once I started looking forward instead of behind, I began to believe in myself again. It's been a tough couple of years and I allowed myself to believe things about myself that were not true. Once I started believing in myself again, more things seemed possible. Once anything seemed possible, I began to get excited about what the future held.

Granted my future is not the one I expected to be having but if I have learned one thing about God is that if He takes something away, he gives it back 10 fold! I am ready to meet my McDreamy!