I should listen to my husband and not watch these sad movies. Now that I've cried for a few hours, I've given myself a headache. I hate to cry. I don't know who first said if you cry you'll feel better, but they couldn't have been more wrong, at least for me. I'm not one of those people who have big tears well up in their eyes and then one tear dramatically falls down their cheek as their eyes look all luminescent. If anythings falling on me, it's the snot running down from my nose and it gets all red. If I cry more than 2 tears, my face gets all blotchy and I can't breathe through my nose for an hour. In addition, I always get a headache and when I can breathe from my nose, everything smells weird. No, I learned a long time ago I did not like to cry. Of course whenever I went to counseling, my therapist had a fit, "you need to cry and let it all out, trust me you will feel like a new woman", ah, no thanks, I'll hold it in and take it out on everyone around me.
I can find the saddest movies. If it's a tear jerker, I'll end up watching it, not intentionally, but it will spark my interest and then I'm hooked. Of course when it's over I want to talk about it and search out my husband who is probably playing video games or watching his recorded shows and talk about all these in depth thoughts that the movie brought up. He takes one look at my blotchy face and runs for the hills. No, usually he rolls his eyes and tells me we have enough drama in real life and why do I watch those things.
For some odd reason I am just focused on the more serious things in life right now. I have very little time for small talk and such. I'd like to take a line from the movie The Doctor where one of the cancer patients says to the doctor who had lied to her, "I'm dying, don't waste my time". I know that I am not dying, at least not at this moment, but in the last couple of months 3 people have died with sarc that were high profile, so it makes you wonder how many died that didn't get mentioned. I knew after reading up on this disease that it could kill you, but that seemed like such a low probability at the time, but people with this disease are dying and it does nobody any good to put your head in the sand and try ti ignore the facts. Just 2 years ago I had a horrible case of pneumonia and was walking around as usual. That is the complication Bernie Mac died of. That could have been me two years ago. I'm sorry, but that makes you think.
Take care
Melissa
I can find the saddest movies. If it's a tear jerker, I'll end up watching it, not intentionally, but it will spark my interest and then I'm hooked. Of course when it's over I want to talk about it and search out my husband who is probably playing video games or watching his recorded shows and talk about all these in depth thoughts that the movie brought up. He takes one look at my blotchy face and runs for the hills. No, usually he rolls his eyes and tells me we have enough drama in real life and why do I watch those things.
For some odd reason I am just focused on the more serious things in life right now. I have very little time for small talk and such. I'd like to take a line from the movie The Doctor where one of the cancer patients says to the doctor who had lied to her, "I'm dying, don't waste my time". I know that I am not dying, at least not at this moment, but in the last couple of months 3 people have died with sarc that were high profile, so it makes you wonder how many died that didn't get mentioned. I knew after reading up on this disease that it could kill you, but that seemed like such a low probability at the time, but people with this disease are dying and it does nobody any good to put your head in the sand and try ti ignore the facts. Just 2 years ago I had a horrible case of pneumonia and was walking around as usual. That is the complication Bernie Mac died of. That could have been me two years ago. I'm sorry, but that makes you think.
Take care
Melissa
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